So much drama at work lately. Over petty little crap that people blow out of proportion and it has created so much tension amongst the other agents. eugh.

Also i have declined a date drom this other real estate agent because i know the new girl in the office had a major crush on him (still does) and i would feel bad. I’m just really nice like that.

I plan on going to Queensland with Lucy and others in December yayayayay!

I really want my sister to come home soon and have another massive night out.

I feel rather sick today.

My boss is at the other office this morning, probably teaching the new sales manager the ropes. So i have had the heater on nice and high :)

I’m really looking forward to having dinner with the fam tonight.

I miss my godson.

I should get off Tumblr and book my appointments, but i really don’t want to go outside today.

Hope everyone has a splendid day!

Friday: Work was okay, nothing spesh then had a bbq dinner at Anna Lisas house which was fun.

Saturday: Failed to get to my 8:30 appointment because my tyre blew out. Deon had to pick me up whilst it got fixed then drive me back to my car. 20 minutes later, the same tyre blew out haha. My boss was kind enough to drive me around, pick the two tyres up get them fixed and replace them for me. 

Today/Sunday: Hosted a bridal shower for Anna Lisa, seemed to go perfectly and everyone had fun :)

All in all a good weekend.

OMG. Just weighed myself. I’ve never cared about telling people how much i weigh or never been SOO unhappy about the way i look that i would try to hide/cover up, until now, This is the first time i am actually embarrassed to disclose what i weigh. Oh man why can’t i stop eating. Seriously considering hypnosis!

You know what? I’m giving up on making an effort with some people because i can’t be bothered anymore. I know i have said it before, but this time i am!

You know what else? I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what i want in my personal life. I really can’t figure it out. When i think i’ve decided on one thing, i think about the other and create fun scenarios in my head and then think maybe i want that. I guess the only way to find out is really start experiencing everything! Everyone at work keeps telling me to let my hair down and just go crazy with life and make that my focus instead of work (everyone saying that except for my boss, haha) telling me to book holidays and go out every night. I know i wont, but i should. 

Holidays. Parents are going to adelaide on the 5th of Jan, i won’t be going because work would have needed minimum 4 weeks notice. Parents are going to China this year too i think, also won’t be going due to work. If my parents go to China in 2013, my plan is to go with them for 2 weeks, then venture off to other places i would like to visit. Top of the list - Dubai, Russia, Paris & Greece. Buuuut that would require lots of time off work so i may substitute all that with a Contiki tour because i know Ally would be suuuuper keen, even though it’s suggested you go on your own. 

Should get up and exercise. Need to find a dress. Wish i would stop having dreams about someone close to me dying. New years resolution - make more of an effort with family. Need to find someone this year, another friend perhaps that is always available for a chat, someone i can vent to - then see again and update them with my venting, mhhmm. Need to get the girls together to discuss Anna Lisa’ wedding <3. Pay phone bill. Go on a date. Start reading a new book. Get to work earlier. Should really stop eating chocolate everyday. Throw out all the clothes i don’t wear, even if your wardrobe will be empty. Be kind. Clean the car. Make Grandmama some pancakes soon. Drink less coffee. Let go. Dye my hair. 

Had a fantastic weekend! 

Friday: Spent shopping with my sister, had dinner and then went to my friends Anna Lisas house to chill.

Saturday: Morning spent shopping. Got myself a hot pink dress for the work christmas party this Wednesday and two pairs of shoes. Then got ready for Sarah’s wedding!
It was absolutely beautiful. I had to hold back tears soo many times throughout the services, speeches (especially the maid of honours and best man), when her brother sung her a song + the couples first dance. Everyone looked so happy for them and their parents were beaming with pride. Was a really fun wedding full of dancing, eating, talking and dancing.

Today (Sunday): Went to the organic berry farm again. Picked and ate so many raspberries. Went off to our picnic spot after that for our bbq. Unfortunately forgot the football so improvised with a baby toy that we took the batteries out off and kicked around. haha. 

It was my first complete weekend off in almost a year and i have reaaaallly enjoyed it. Very tired and feeling a little sick now so i might even go to bed super early. woo

Can’t make everyone happy. Not being as bigger part of someones life as you thought. Fuck you. Happy for you. Life is so weird with the way it changes and how drastic those changes seem. Miss you. Thanks for putting a smile on my face. You could be a better friend. I wish you were more honest with me. I wish you didn’t talk shit about me behind my back. You are not the person i thought you were. I should be more grateful for the things i have in life. Good luck to you. Goodnight.